thang

I am not excited for my birthday at all. How rare.

It’s 4am. I can’t sleep. My answers were terrible. My practice answers were so much better. There’s so much more in my head.. So much more I can offer.

Yes I know I should stop ranting, what’s done is done. 4 years. Seriously. 4 fucking years.

Everything seem to be going quite well recently. My dad has finally settled down at his new place, the owner seems quite nice. He’s paying his bills on time (i hope) and he even gave us a treat on his birthday. He’s so much happier now, i am so glad he’s out of his depression phrase. No more scary talks, its all “once i clear my debts, i’ll do this and that’ (: 

As for my siblings, my brother has settled down and is moving on to the next phrase in life. I guess my parents are really proud of him now, he has a good career and even bought a car recently. Actually even i am secretly proud of him. My sister is planning for her wedding this coming december, as usual, she’s being all paranoid about the details this and that. Frankly I enjoy watching her plan her wedding, there’s this spark in her eyes. After years of taking care of the family, she will be finally be taken care of (: As for my baby sister, she’s learning to study on her own. She even studies in my room while i am at work. my baby girl is all grown up now. And she’s at that phrase where pink is her enemy. such a boy i tell you. haha. Lastly, my aunties is moving out soon, one of my mum’s worry down. She can stop cooking so much now. do you know how tiring it is to have to cook and rush to work? she does it every single day. And most importantly, my mum can have her room back. Everyone needs their alone time, and i know she misses it. 

So i am grateful for everything. Dear god, please let it stay this way. My family has gone though so much, its time to give them a break. Please.